Preparing our hearts and home for a new family member.... it's always a surreal time, whether it's your first or your fifth (or so I imagine and don't ever plan to know for sure, haha).
How am I? Exhausted. Excited. Achy. Happy. Hormonal (ohhhh, the hormones!). Spaced-out. Grateful. Content. Sometimes vomiting, usually at least slightly nauseous. Did I mention tired?? Wavering between wanting to savour these moments of life 'as we know it' and eagerly anticipating the new stage to come. Bring it on....
The kids ask every day if today is the day 'the new baby' will be born. They are sooooo excited and so ready to welcome this little one into their lives. They have so much love in their hearts (and so many eager little hands!). I cannot wait to see them experience life with their new baby sibling. After witnessing Lily with Eli's arrival, I now know to eagerly anticipate the incredible joy and blessing it is to see your children love and care for each other. Sibling love is the sweetest. This baby has so many snuggles coming!!
|Getting the bassinette warmed up with some practise with Baby Susan|
|Dolls are good but these two are ready for the real thing.... though not sure if|
the real baby will be quite ready to be smothered with their love!!
I am pottering through my days. Trying to slow down. Often failing, but trying! I'm putting together a photo book online of my 366 Project (so I can order a hard copy - I need evidence, haha!). It brings back memories of when I was pregnant with Lily. The year before, Mark and I had taken an incredible whirlwind trip around the world (South Africa, Argentina, Brasil and Malaysia - yes, a deliciously random mix!). In those weeks before and after Lily's arrival, I finally put together a scrap book of our 'Trip of a Lifetime'... this was back in the day when I actually did the old 'print photos, stick them in a book with collected memorabilia' thing - not all online like I am now!
Oh, those quiet days sifting through international memories, putting together that book... it was so soothing! Anticipating the life change of our first precious child. It was delicious, being ready as we could be, and waiting to meet her. In those heavenly weeks after she arrived, with her quickly settling into a newborn routine of eating and sleeping (yes, she was an angel baby), and with all the 'back to ground zero' space that a new child brings to your life, I would spend nap times and evenings quietly working on the book while Mark worked through an impressive to-do list during his paternity leave.
Now here I am, working on a similar project but this time with two busy little people already in my life, so of course just a bit less time to create at leisure!! And certainly even less time after baby's arrival too, with two littlies to also keep occupied - hence why I am trying to get this book done now. And yet this project is filled with 366 good reasons why a very different 'adventure of a lifetime' - experiencing life with two young hearts - is such a worthy (if somewhat exhausting) filler of our time!
|'Awww, Lily, it's my turn to hold baby!!'Yeah, something tells me I will be hearing a lot more of this!|
I am feeling ready to welcome this new baby... well, as ready as one can be with such a precious yet unknown little quantity! Looking forward to taking on the incredible and beautiful challenge of birth, whatever it may be. Trying to make it to the birth centre this time but not feeling anxious about it. Birth is so unpredictable but I go into it with positivity and excitement. I think birth is such an amazing privilege and process for women to go through, a rite of passage through which we become mothers. Hard, yes, but oh, so worth it.
Most of all, I am thinking of this little one almost just within reach and pray fervently that he is healthy and strong and will come into this world safely where we can love and cherish him. I would truly appreciate prayers for these things from anyone so inclined!
You are already so loved, little one. I pray you are soon safely in my arms!